Forgiveness.

As humans with different outlooks on things and different levels if tolerance, some find it harder than others to forgive. The question I have been stuck on the last few days, is one i have not yet found the answer to. Is there a limit to what we can forgive? Is there a boundary that, if crossed, deletes any spot for forgiveness for a certain individual?

I have always forgave people fairly easy. I am fully aware that people mess up, lash out, and say things they don't mean at all and sometimes you cannot hold that against them. I'm a firm believer in second chances, providing opportunities to change, and yes, forgiveness but recently i have found myself in a situation i'm not being so nice about.

As i sit back and look at the people that surround me in my life, i found the people worth keeping and the people that have to go. Negativity is not something i want laced throughout my life at this point in time because i'm on a tight road that has no room for it. I took my time to evaluate the ones i felt were worth it, and the ones i felt were not. 99.9% of the people currently in my life are amazing, and more then worth my time, but there is still that 0.1% that are not. Thats where the forgiveness part comes in. Do i forgive these people and ignore the negativity they bring, hoping they will change? Or do i weed them out and continue without them? I couldn't figure out why this decision was so hard, but then it occurred to me that this small percentage of people have something in common- how bad they have hurt me. Each one of these people have done something to me that has molded me into a different person, and i thank them for that but they had to put me through some extreme life tests to do that. Each one of them has hurt me emotionally to a point where forgiveness isn't an option anymore, because they have done things that i will never be able to get out of my mind.


I like to consider myself a nice person, and my friends would agree. Always sticking up for the underdog, being there when needed, anything they would ask but my heart cannot come to terms with the emotional scars these people have left.


So i decided this. These people who are effecting me negatively have no place in my heart, because the people i love deserve that space. Yes, i will respect you, as well as you will me but you being in my life is not an option. No, you will never hear me talk about you, as well as anyone else, and i would hope you would never talk about me. Remember that if you need anything, you can always ask. Even if we aren't in each others lives, your still a friend and friends are always suppose to be there for each other. I will wish you the best in your future adventures, and hope that God changes your negativity into a forceful power of positivity. If one day you wake-up and decide you don't want to live that way anymore, there is always another option if you got another day.